I never wanted to love you. It just happened. I saw you as a friend and nothing more. Over time I realized you made me laugh more than anything and you made me happy. From that point I was attracted to you. It wasn’t a shallow attraction either. We talked everyday and I wanted to be around you more. I still can’t get enough. You’ve gotten more and more beautiful since…. well, the first time I met you. You’ve grown on me and my feelings have grown to be more than I expected.
When I met your family I felt pretty welcome. It was nice. I can’t even explain how happy it made me that I was acknowledged as your girlfriend. Your family is pretty amazing. Even with the mild dysfunction and harsh Sarcasm.
I can honestly say, seeing you with your family and being as happy as I’ve been made me fall in love with you. You’re different than anyone I’ve ever known, while being exactly my “type”. I’m sorry I’m insecure. I’m sorry I push you away. I’m sorry I make you feel like you’re doing something wrong. I feel like it’s me. Like I can’t be good enough for anyone. I hope you understand that I’m trying. I’ll be better. You deserve my best and I shouldn’t hide that from you just because I’m scared to fail again…
I do love you.
Even if it is soon for our relationship, you’ve been my favorite person and the only person that could make me happy for the past 7 months. I think that counts.
You’re the only person I want.
I’ll do better.
Alien head dumplings at Tokyo Disney Sea. They are mochi filled with ice cream. Each one is a different flavor!
Holy balls
You say that love goes anywhere. In your darkest time, it’s just enough to know it’s there. When you go, I’ll let you be. But you’re killing everything in me.
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Battle
So. I love her. And it scares me because I feel like once I love someone I lose them. I gave Caitlin the absolute best of me. Like. I was everything she asked me to be and I did the little things. Im scared to do that now even though Kristen deserves it. So every once in a while I get lost and just allow myself to be the best I can and pour myself out and whatever, but then I get scared again and try and push her away. So that’s my problem.
I go from sweetheart to asshole within minutes.
I hate it.
I wanna be better.
